Krishnamurti & the Art of Awakening

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Sradha Retreat
Birthday: September 16
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This is part of something i wrote for a Malayalam magazine for their special issue 'on Psychology'.
[..... At the age of 18-19 i was shocked by a realization that all family and personal relationships are just illusions .....based on images we create for our convenience. This lead me to a sort of distrust and to the concept of Sanyasa .University, carrier etc was dropped and i went more and more into Bagavad Geetha, Upanishads, Rama Krishna, Ramana Maharshi, Buddhism., Bible,Yoga, meditation, suppression, denial of senses,solitude.....preparation for renunciation. An attempt to put into practice 'Geeta Govindam' a work of the famous Hindu Scholar Sankara was disastrous. Reciting and affirming the boobs and belly of a women is just flesh and....and this lead to a state where i cannot approach a women mentally or physically. And the nature wakes up suddenly ...and conflict, controlling, fall, guilt.
Even in that desert of the mind where there is nothing to expect, the memory of those beautiful evenings still haunts . Beauty that unfolds when there is really nothing to long for.
With the dusk a sort of numbness enters and the fear of unfathomable. The infinite space- time, millions of stars, light, darkness, death, fear of non-being, fear of life, fear of madness...nightmares, waking from one dream into another dream and its recurring. Then again Bible ,Geetha, recitation of Keerthana, fantasies, fall, conflicts, sleeplessness, nervousness,horror of life. A night was like an eternity.
Krishnamurti Teachings came to me at that time, when i was even unable to cross a road by myself or talk to a stranger. It was like a downpour of blessing. I just finished reading Siddhartha, and i felt the core of Buddha's teaching & Vedanta in K's teaching.
Till that time everything that is false has to be conquered and it was all struggles and conflicts. With K, all struggle is just a continuation of' that which is' and austerity of the mind is just self-centeredness. This approach brought tremendous relief and freedom and i found me more cool with myself.
Fear normally get multiplied. Fear of fear. It is nourished and sustained by thought- by our effort to be free. But when i was waiting for it , to see its petals unfold it disappeared. And i was finding me again in the waters of life... of course a bit.. .]

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Do you think Krishnamurti was exceptional, or is the transformation he spoke of universally accessible?

Think Krishnamurti was exceptional. Still the transformation he talk about might be a distant possibility.
Is the people who try to follow or communicate with the teaching anyway different from the others? After negating the ideals, symbols, the culture, the practices of meditation if the mind stops, will it becomes sluggish and deteriorate? Many followers of K thinks they are in the verge of a transformation and later grow bitter.
Think you must not take the teaching as a guide line for transformation but as a mirror to reflect human mind which is oneself.

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Can dialogue - in the sense of sincere inquiry - be organized or can it only come about spontaneously, unprompted?

Listening to a talk of K, like a sermon of Buddha suddenly brings silence and depth and understanding.You have very little to offer but listen. But the normal organized dialogues are just self expressions.

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How important do you consider group dialogue to be in understanding the more subtle points of Krishnamurti's message?

Better alone . You don't have to get all points.But at times it may help.So occasional group dialogue is good.

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Do you ever feel that you have been conditioned by Krishnamurti's teachings?

Yes. It happens automatically.Certain negations and responses are not mine. The mind itself is a foreign installation.

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Has coming into contact with Krishnamurti and his teachings had any perceptible effect on your life and/or relationships?

It had definitely helped me a lot. But I am not sure if it can guide me through if similar states recur.
Is it a solution to every human problem?
He was great. But why should we make him a Savior.Better to keep the solution as unknown.

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What future do you foresee for Krishnamurti's works? Do you think they will grow in importance or will they just gradually die away?

It has to challenge the human thinking, the very processes of inquiry, the duality of thinker and thought for a very long time!But will you and me take it seriously?

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